Conjunctives and conditionals don’t make reality.

I have good moves on the dance floor, but I never pursued dancing.

I took dance class for a few months, years ago. 

Funk class. It was fun, but didn’t last.  

I have a good voice, but I never pursued singing.

I went to a few auditions. I passed one, but then I didn’t want to continue.

I’m a good word juggler, perhaps better in Italian, but that doesn’t make me a writer.

Always received everybody’s applause for my words and took a few writing classes in college, but never seriously pursued the career. I did an internship at the AP in college and APTN called me afterward for a temporary substitution, but I had a block and never really proposed all the stories I would have wanted to.

Should have, could have, would have takes you nowhere in life, so I took the bull by the horns, I guess in English is the same expression we have in Italian and I stopped this process.

I’m a good runner, so one day, I stopped and decided to do it for real and on November 4th I will run my third marathon, the first in New York City.

I’m a good manager at work, I’m committed, so one day I decided to  pursue my career even if underpaid, because it was worth it. It worked and then I left. Not only the job, but the opportunity of a potential dream career, at least in Rome.

I’m trying to make it in the States, not only in my head, but for real.With my hands.

Scared? A little, what if I didn’t find what I want? Conjunctives are as useless as conditional to make it in this world. Better remorses than regrets in life.

A dear friend of mine today was sad and depressed because her contract job is about to end in a month. And then what? She’s really good and she has a lot of different skills, but she’s indolent, perhaps because of her inner fear, I don’t know, but she tends to stop a step right before.

Of course, there’s always an excuse to stop a step before, I found millions in the past and I continue to, because what if, by mistake, that final step is going to be successful. Then, you are forced to complete your idea and turn it into reality. Chinese used to say”don’t aspire too hard to something, because you might get it for real one day”.

Now, I’m ready, not because I’m not scared or, insecure to do something. I guess I just realized that I will never be ready if that means not to be scared to try something.

I’m ready because I can accept my insecurities and fear to accompany myself along my challenges. That’s why I know I’m ready and I hope that my dear friend will be ready as well for her journey. Good luck my dear, precious Giulia.

 I have good moves on the dance floor, but I never pursued dancing.

I have a good voice, but I never pursued singing.

I’m a good word juggler, but that doesn’t make me a writer.

Not yet.

Now, I’m a runner and on Nov4th I’m going to run a marathon.