And voila, hey Houston can you hear me? I’m landing

And voila, the curtain opens. The crowd is ready and the show begins: I quit my job and now I’m looking for another one. A better one. In the States;New York, L.A. it doesn’t matter.I’m damn ready to rock and roll anywhere I’ll have the chance to within the US.

The ironic part? I’m excited.I’m serene and I feel free,like I’ve never felt for so long. Perhaps, last time it was right after I graduated, but I couldn’t really grasp the individuality of that, since at that time I was with someone in Boston-Nicole for those of you who followed my adventures- Not that it last for that long since I had graduated inMay and she dumped in November-22ndthe same day I took my driving license years before, weird right? At that time, I felt free, but still didn’t exactly know what to do with that freedom. I felt like everything I was doing or try to do wasn’t exactly because of my strenght. Iwas with her, in Boston and didn’t whether I would have been able to do the same withou her.Bymyself.

Now, I know:)

Years later, five years later, I’m definitely bymyself and bymyself I decided to  finally unchain myself from “Bob”’s slavery (and let’s stop here, those people are pretty weird.wouldn’t really like to be suited for whatever reason.paranoid? with pride! ), free from my own ambition. I don’t want to be at their mercy. I’m thankful I have them. I am, but don’t to be at their mercy. It’s dangerous.

 I’ll try LA, I’ve got one person to talk to already. I’m planning to come around october/november. If anything goes according to plan, in November I’ll run the NY marathon. Today, I started my training and tomorrow I’ll get my number and registration or whatever is called in English! Perhaps, this year, after 3 years of trying, I’ll be really able to go and do it.

Meantime, I’m updating my resume. Some of you might get it. I need suggestions and advices, like the “Education part” goes before or after the professional experience? I’m hearing both theories:) I’ve been researching and as my email will be ready I will start throwing it outhere like there’s no tomorrow while contacting and emailing people.

I guess I should be scared. I quit my job before having another one.Not exactly the smartes move on earth, but given the situation I was in (short short version!) I’m actually really glad, happy. What the hell, I’m 31. If I don’t do crazy thigns now, I’ll never do it again. This is why in my search, hoping NOT  to wait for Godot, I’ve been considering also different fields than production, cinema and TV. Like Humanitarian foundation. Why not? Why not going back home at the end of the day with the illusion to have brought a small contribution to planet earth. A little naive maybe, but inspiring.

 I’m not writing my usual consideration over life,but at least I’m writing. I stopped for a couple of months. It took me awhile to take this decision about my life. It’s been a quite pensive period and it took me a lot to write it out I guess. IT was like a block. In the past month I told a freind of mine who asked me why I wasn’t writing on my blog that I first needed to land before having the chance to tell the story of my recent journey. I guess I just landed on a new place:)

My journey, my decison was a defining one, the one that will definitely influence my life, because I do know that I drastically changed my path, or perhaps continued (maybe it was destiny?). Every day we take decisions that can change, despite slowly the course of our existence. Holywood made oalso a movie out of it. Sliding doors happen all the time, but sometimes a couple of doors may let you enter or exit strategic doors. I think I just steeped out of a very important door, hopefully, right into the right world, the right path. It’s my sense of serenity and freedom to confirm me that. I hope it’s my sixth sense and notsimply my naive hope:)

But as always I have hopeless optimism. I’ll put that as well in the magic box.